Where are you?

I asked God - He didn't answer
I asked the Church - They didn't care
I asked you - You couldn't see
Where do I turn.

Question

I seem to be going through a crisis in my faith. Funny, how I could be so strong just a few years ago and now, questioning the Church.
I guess it isn't the church I question so much because the Church with the big C is more than what I know. It seems that working for the church has caused me to question my faith. I see at the Diocean level - the frailties and sin of those involved with the running of the church. Without the support of some sort of structure to help me to live my faith - I am lost. I have never thought I could do this faith thing alone but I also never though I would be so alone.
Seperating the frailties of those involved with the running of the church with what the church should stand for becomes increasingly difficult for me.
I know I need to remeber how I encountered God. How God held me in His hand for some time and how He guided me, loved me and had a plan for me. I shouldn't write that in past tense. He still does those things -I just can't feel them.
Love is not a feeling...

Thoughts to write

I have felt called to write-off and on for some time. I don't think I will come up with anything profound. Nothing can be said that hasn't been said. I just hope for some awareness, self awareness and awareness of God and His plan to come to me.